"why would i find beauty/truth/intimacy exciting if it did not matter or mean anything?"

the very depths of me groan for beauty and peace. there's something amazing about how a singly note can calm your soul, a painting that makes you feel like there's hope, a melody that opens up your spirit to receive the goodness and love of our Father, whether we realize that that is it or not. there's something to the stillness of His presence. something very powerful. getting still can be so hard. in the stillness, in the secret place with Him is where this beauty i long for lies. its the only place i even get a taste of it. i know its real because i've tasted it. its something no one could have told me about or explained, only something that can be known through His grace, and it is available for all. this beauty is the most real thing i've ever experienced. its something i would do or give up anything for. He is worth it all. thank you Jesus, my Lover.