i just want to know You

why do i always read scripture, specifically the gospels, as if Jesus is mad at me? was i raised this way? was i raised in a church that believed that Jesus is always disappointed in them? i remember at times "teachers" in sunday school saying there is nothing we can do to please God. but this just straight up is not true.

And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased.
-Hebrews 13:16 for example

there are many times in scripture that the Lord isn't pleased with unrighteousness and people believing the Lord isn't good...

You have wearied the LORD with your words.
"How have we wearied him?" you ask.
By saying, "All who do evil are good in the eyes of the LORD, and he is pleased with them" or "Where is the God of justice?"
-Malachi 2:17

i was just reading John 4 where Jesus says to a man who has come to Him to save his dying son, "Unless you people see signs and wonders, you will by no means believe." (v.48). i always read that as if Jesus is frustrated. but why? i have no reason to believe this. is it because i grew up in a sarcastic society that i read the scriptures as Jesus being sarcastic and with frustration? i mean, the man left believing the Word of God when Jesus told him to "Go your way; your son lives." (v.50) without even being where his child was to see if he was healed. the man just believed what Jesus had said to him. how could Jesus be mad that a man was believing His Word? was the man not accounted for righteousness by believing the Word of God? for doing the work of God?

Jesus answered and said to them, "This is the work of God,
that you believe in Him whom He sent."
-John 6:29

give us revelation and wisdom and intimacy to know who You are Jesus!
to come to You for life.
Amen

the only moment we're alone

take me to that mountain

this is my Jesus, strong and mighty, conqueror

⁴ For though He was crucified in weakness, yet He lives by the power of God. For we also are weak in Him, but we shall live with Him by the power of God toward you.
-1 corinthians 13

there is Jesus before the cross and there is Jesus after the cross.

...I heard behind me a loud voice, as of a trumpet, 11 saying, “I am the Alpha and the Omega, the
First and the Last,”...¹² Then I turned to see the voice that spoke with me. And having turned I saw seven golden lampstands, ¹³ and in the midst of the seven lampstands One like the Son of Man, clothed with a garment down to the feet and girded about the chest with a golden band. ¹⁴ His head and hair were white like wool, as white as snow, and His eyes like a flame of fire; ¹⁵ His feet were like fine brass, as if refined in a furnace, and His voice as the sound of many waters; ¹⁶ He had in His right hand seven stars, out of His mouth went a sharp two-edged sword, and His countenance was like the sun shining in its strength. ¹⁷ And when I saw Him, I fell at His feet as dead. But He laid His right hand on me, saying to me,^h]">[h] “Do not be afraid; I am the First and the Last. ¹⁸ I am He who lives, and was dead, and behold, I am alive forevermore. Amen. And I have the keys of Hades and of Death..."
-rev. 1

this is for You

When you've been broken, broken to pieces.
And your heart begins to faint
'cause you don't understand.
And when there is nothing to rake from the ashes.
And you can't even walk
onto the fields of praise.

But I bow down and kiss the Son.
Oh, and I bow down and kiss the Son.

Let the praise of the Lord be in my mouth.
Let the praise of the Lord be in my mouth.

Well, though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Well, though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.

When the rock falls, falls upon you.
And you get ground to dust
no music for your pain.
You open the windows, the windows of heaven.
And then You opened me
and You crushed me like a rose.

You're a good good Father, and You love Your children

how great is the love of God that He would send one of His sons from the other side of the world to love a child because He knows that person is the perfect vessel to love this child thru. Jesus is Good. Jesus is Light

God, the inventor of love

You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you
that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit
should remain, that whatever you
ask the Father in My name He may give you.
-John 15:10

i've got a River of Life flowing out of me

right before i received the Holy Spirit the Lord said to me,
"My light will outshine all your darkness."

little did i know in psalm 18 David says,
"The Lord my God will enlighten my darkness."

one day a friend of mine asked the Lord,
"am i hearing Your voice?"

He replied to her,
"of course you hear My voice. you're My best friend"