give me eyes to see and ears to hear and a heart of understanding

i want to hear
i want to see

Delight in me

i really feel like God is bringing me into a real pure joy. it's that joy that hurts to get. its very deep and comes straight from the very depths of our souls and it takes a very hard and painful road to. a road that passes all my failures, all my shame, all my sin, all my weaknesses, all my hurts and pains and scars and fears along the way. it's a road that confronts all those things and a road on which i realize i fail 90% of the time. but it's a road where Jesus is at the end and smiling at me and saying "keep coming" while He stares at me with His eyes of fiery passionate love. it's a road He came to earth to walk down and to conquer so we could conquer it too and see Him at the end. no one or nothing can pluck me from His hand. I am my Beloved's and He is mine.

a broken and contrite heart You will not despise

i'm giving You my heart
and all that is within
i lay it all down
for the sake of You my King
i'm giving up my dreams
i'm laying down my rights
and giving up my pride
for the promise of new life
i surrender all to You
all to You

i'm singing You this song
i'm waiting at the cross
and all the world holds dear
i count it all as loss
for the sake of knowing You
and the glory of Your name
to know the lasting joy
and even sharing in Your pain
i surrender all to You
all to You

literally seek His face

O my dove, let me see your face, let me hear your voice

why does my gaze leave the One i love. His gaze is always upon me longing for us to gaze back. my gaze on Him somehow ravishes His heart. with just one glance of my eye (song of solomon 6:5 and 4:9). i pray for a revelation of this Love of You, Jesus. that my gaze would never leave You and always looking deeper. Amen

I'm not just an accident or one He hides His face from.
Before He made us He thought about it.

this is my Beloved

i love hearing His whispers

i can only imagine more

this my Beloved, this is my Friend
I'm gonna love Him until the end of time
I'm gonna see Him face to face
O joy devine!
this is my Beloved

You call me brother

i don't know why i don't believe or can't comprehend the nearness of God

i was at the Livingroom once and just sitting in the corner on a couch. my eyes were closed and i was playing this little thing i made up on the guitar over and over. i felt someone sit down on the couch next to me. i opened my eyes and looked over and no one was there.

"He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised..."
-Isaiah 53:3

to suffer with Christ...