i am down and You are up

i felt like i found love and have forgotten. i want to find it again and never forget. i want the power of His Word. i want to touch His garments. I want to come to Him and He to me. I want Him to wake me up in the night and tell me He loves me. I want Him to be with me in the day and keep me company. I want Him to satisfy me like only He can. I want to see His face and know His presence and be moved. deeply moved. I want to want nothing else other than Him. I want peace in my soul and love in my heart. I want His Spirit to richly dwell in me. I feel sick. I want Jesus. I want You, Jesus. I need You, Jesus. I need You, Jesus. I need You, Jesus. please hear me. I need You, Jesus

i feel like i'm almost constantly surrounded by friends and family and people i love and love me back. last night i sat in my room and thought "why do i feel so alone" and almost immediately upon thinking this i heard a sweet voice whisper "because I want to get you alone with Me."

why can't i just be still and be alone with my Lover, my Father, my Brother, my Almighty God? to find joy and piece and power in Him and His Word. I love You, Jesus. Forgive me and bring me closer.

"Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you."

-James 4:7-8

Your mercies!

“Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

Psalm 73:25-26

my flesh my fail and i may sin. my heart may fail and become discouraged. but He is my strength! my restorer! my redeemer! my lover! He is MY portion. and my portion FOREVER! His salvation has come to me! He is the lifter of my head when i am down or when my flesh and heart of failed. He cries out "I forgive you!!!!! just please come home!!!!!! I love you! i miss you! my heart longs for you to be near to me!" what a good good Father! You set us free!

Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy! who is a God like you?! may we gaze on Your beauty all the days of our life, God! that we would have joy in You, in Your Holy Spirit who is with us! that You, God, are with us and will never leave us. that You, God, are with ME and will never leave ME! Hallelujah! and Amen.

never forget His mercies

how do we so easily forget the mercy He's had on us and return to our evil ways? let us always remember what He's done for us

surrounded by Your glory
what will my heart feel?
will i dance for You, Jesus?
or in awe of You be still?
will i stand in Your presence?
or to my knees will i fall?
will i sing hallelujah?
will i be able to speak at all?
i can only imagine

Let me see Your beauty God. let me be genuine

¹¹I saw heaven standing open and there before me was a white horse, whose rider is called Faithful and True. With justice he judges and makes war. ¹²His eyes are like blazing fire, and on his head are many crowns. He has a name written on him that no one knows but he himself. ¹³He is dressed in a robe dipped in blood, and his name is the Word of God.

Revelation 19:11-13

the bold text seemed really violent to me at first. but then i realized its the blood shed for our sins. its the blood of our redemption to God. it is the robe of intercession for us. the testimony of the cross. it is the blood of an intense and fiery love.

listen to Me, I love you

"He turned to me and said, 'i know what you've done, and i love you. and if you try to run, i'll chase you.' Thats when i knew it wasn't just my husband speaking to me."

Holy Holy Holy

a little over 2000 years ago Jesus did something He had never done before in all of eternity; He left His Father's side. were there last goodbye's before He came? what was it like in heaven right before this happened? i pray for genuine love for You. Amen