Lord, guide my steps

there is me sitting here and knowing that He is out there watching me but i'm not watching back. there is me knowing who He is and its like He is standing right in front of me but i can't see Him and am looking right past Him. what i want is for Jesus it be right here and me gaze right back into His eyes. i want real communion and a real relationship. i want to believe the Scriptures that testify about Him and i want to come to Him for life. He is our Lover.